Co-Existence

December 13

Update of site info from MSN site...
For a view of my website, where there is a listing of some extensive writing projects and far more inspiration, please visit CO-EXISTENCE.COM.

Hope you enjoy!!!
Happy journeys!
Love, Audrey


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December 10

The Purpose of Life
A friend had posted this video on my Facebook wall, and I thoroughly enjoyed it.  I had just finished reading a book by Larry Dossey, M.D. called "Recovering the Soul" which describes in essence the message of this video.  It's a wonderful read and speaks of the nonlocal mind in a wonderful way that is quite freeing!  This video says what Larry said in such a simplistic and beautiful way. :) But for those who enjoy delving deeper still, the book really was great.  It offers some scientific research along with some spiritual insights that really help the reader understand the ultimate message that is behind both science and spirituality...the answer each arena seeks to find to its question of "Why are we here?" and "What is our purpose?"

 



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May 25

The Forgotten Soldier

 

Memorial Day, 2009

The following Poem was written in respect to Vietnam Vets and depicts the effects very well of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD); however, in light of Memorial Day and the very fact that these courageous people showed these fine qualities to stand up for our rights dating back to the Civil War when Memorial Day was subsequently established and then being carried on to honor those from WWI, then II, and now so many honor their loved ones who fought in the Vietnam War, I thought WOW, these people were yes, very brave, but also overlooked in MANY ways, as were their families...

 

You see, PTSD and trauma, in general, effects each person differently, yet there are an astounding number of similarities. Even families of persons who have been through trauma can develop their own form of PTSD. Now, I could write a whole entry in regards to PTSD, the symptoms, the reasons for onset, and the ways to overcome it (in fact, let me know if you're interested – see contact info), but THIS entry is just a poem about the qualities we sometimes overlook in those who stood up for the ones they loved in the hardest of ways........it is simply a poem as I show my respects this Memorial Day...the picture afterwards is a reflection I personally correlate to the bridges that have been made by all who are warriors in life, no matter the smallest of battles (babies endure them just to breathe), whatever path tread (it is the perception that makes that bridge so sturdy, the battle won in the heart that leads to new horizons.).

 

I hope you enjoy:

 

THE FORGOTTEN SOLDIER:

 

I am ...

the boy who went away to war and never came home

your policeman

your factory worker

your alcoholic

your little league coach

your drug addict

your brother who never talked to you

in your prisons

in your hospitals

 

I am ...

the boy who went away to war and never came home

your neighbor who has been screaming for 20 years

the guy you spat on

the baby killer

COLD and EMOTIONLESS

your son

your prisoner of war -- 2,400 strong

your teacher in school

the drifter you saw in town last week

your blood donor

40 years old going on 19

your husband who can't talk to you

the stock clerk at your local fast food restaurant

your senator

your congressman

 

I am ...

the boy who went away to war and never came home

your patriot

your recluse

America's shame

your father

the 36-year-old that died of Agent Orange

DIFFERENT

your suicide

your big brother

your doctor

your scout leader

your ex-husband

the boy you graduated with in the 60's

 

I am ...

the boy who went away to war and never came home

the banker in your community

your building contractor

confused as to why I feel lost

ever alert

ever vigilant

the man who can't rest

the man who fears the night

the boy who went away to war and WANTS to come home

 

I am the forgotten soldier, I am a Vietnam Vet

 

~Richard Couture

 

As far as Vietnam is concerned, about 1 million war vets developed PTSD after serving in Vietnam and there are cases of delayed-onset PTSD, as well. It is not just our showing sympathy or even empathy towards our beloved veterans alongside our remembrance -- that is certainly so very important; it is also, most certainly, our compassion for the peace we want in this world just as they want (and we want) in their (and our) lives.

 

Much Love,

Audrey

 

“New Horizon”

 

Many have built bridges so that we may walk from one land to the other; Always, in building them and walking them, we find glorious, new horizons! THANK YOU! (To ALL who have aided in building these bridges! And, also, to ALL who seek out NEW HORIZONS!)

Blessed Memorial Day!

 

 

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April 14

STILLNESS

 

There is something to be said about the turbulence that surrounds us and the quiet that can be found in that storm. It is kind of like whirling around in a hurricane only to realize there is an eye in its center that is calm, still, and completely at peace.

Are we able to find that stillness even when we DON'T go to that hammock outside where we seek to find silence and solitude? Are we able to find that stillness even when the kids are screaming, the lawnmowers are growling, and LIFE "still" moves . . .

Yea, we are...

It's all a matter of taking that stillness that exists WITHIN. . .

 

That little (or BIG) piece of us that is begging to be "heard" but to not be "heard." And in THAT moment (or moments) of complete stillness, we may find that we really are connected, not only to our true inner selves and the inner depths of consciousness, but to a universal stillness that has been awaiting our arrival and seeks that stillness, as well.

In a connected silence, we find there is a multitude of universal outcomes that we can arrive to when WE arrive IN stillness. So, listen to the stillness, embrace the silence IN the storm, and "hear" what it says!

In Stillness,

Audrey Louise

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April 10

SPRING HAS SPRUNG

 

It was mentioned to me that perhaps all my “mania” was in relation to the changing of seasons.  And while I know my body and know that my mania/depression (let’s call this a mixed episode) was in FULL force well before spring had sprung, I DO KNOW that SO MANY people are affected by seasonal changes.  My own personal account was not due to the changing of seasons……BUT…….many people do feel these shifts, so to speak . . . 

We could call this SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder), or we could just say that those people who are IN TUNE with Mother Earth are feeling her changes.  AND THESE CHANGES IN THE EARTH AND OUR BODIES ARE ALL OK!!!  Embrace the feelings and let them guide you; remember that your feelings are your compasses; let them tell you what direction you need to move.  It could mean you need a little break, or that you need some sunshine.  It could mean that you need time to plant or time to peruse some flowers and crops TO be planted.  It could mean you just need to listen to the birds . . .

but all of that said, just remember to stay in tune: STAY IN TUNE TO YOUR MIND, BODY, FEELINGS, SOUL….STAY IN TUNE TO THE EARTH THAT IS MOVING WITH YOU AND ALL THOSE AROUND YOU….

WE ARE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER!  We are continually coexisting at some level with all that surrounds us!

 

Much Love,

Audrey Louise

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January 17

AFFIRMATION ON BELIEFS

With so many people rising to the occasion of making New Year's Resolutions, I thought it was the perfect opportunity to discuss the beliefs we hold in regards to the THOUGHTS we generate about what we want to manifest in our lives. 

A few weeks ago I had the privilege to be involved in a discussion about how to manifest what we want.  And it was even more of a privilege to be inspired to invent an affirmation surrounding this and also have permission to share this discussion on my blog.  Thank you, Angie!

What I feel is most critical as people move through their New Year's Resolutions (and also anything else that one would want to manifest in their lives, for that matter) is that these desires are in ALIGNMENT with their other heart-felt beliefs they hold on to. 

This discussion I am going to share should be able to provide examples of what it means to have this "alignment." 

And the affirmation I came up with, I feel, can be a pretty good aide in helping our manifestations occur.

Hope you Enjoy!.........

 

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The following was the initial post from Angie in The Magic Happens Group Forum at Powerful Intentions, titled "Affirmations."

Angie asked,

“Which affirmations would you use for:

1. Wanting to live to a very old age, suppose past 90 years old, with very good health and a very good life quality and feeling and looking young.

2. Wanting to find a boyfriend who only will have eyes for you, never ogle or to look other women finding them attractive, and that does not find attractive or pretty any other women other than you.”

 

I wrote the following response which includes the AFFIRMATION surrounding beliefs that I feel is very pertinent in aiding us all in manifesting what we want, and not just at the time of year when New Year’s Resolutions are at hand, but continually throughout our lives:

“I was very intrigued by your question because it embraces the concept of first, how our beliefs structure our lives and second, how we must also embrace the concept of "allowing" for those beliefs in perfect timing. Because it is our true beliefs....the heart centered ones....that will guide whether or not ANY of the other beliefs we attempt to create, instill, or even disprove along the way will manifest.

If the desire to live to an "old" age (what IS that anyway? LOL) and the desire to manifest a mate that will have like-attractions for you are ALIGNED with the universe and the heart centered beliefs you have created, then I believe that this will happen.  If you have created DIFFERENT core beliefs (such as a belief from others, even, passed down through generations, that perhaps your family has a history of dying young) and you have held ON to that belief, then you are misaligned with what you are wanting to manifest.  Or if you have a belief that men, in general, tend to look at pretty women and could potentially find them attractive or feel that age or some other factor would take your own attractiveness away and sway a man to look at other women, then you have a belief that is misaligned with what you are attempting to manifest.  We must let go of these misaligned beliefs if we REALLY want to manifest our desires.

 

AFFIRMATION:

BELIEVE (no matter what anyone says) (no matter how long it takes) (no matter what circumstances arise) ~ I know what my heart is saying CAN and WILL happen, and I LET GO of my own or others misaligned beliefs.

ALLOW ~ I allow for the UNIVERSE to accept my heart-felt beliefs and desires and accept the perfect timing of EVERYTHING for all of existence.

RECEIVE ~ I am willing to receive the expected, and most importantly, the unexpected, for in it all, my desires are manifesting, and I am witnessing these miracles beyond the imaginable!

BE THANKFUL ~ In ALL that occurs towards my manifestations and in the wake of them, I am THANKFUL, for my life's purpose WILL be, IS being, and HAS been fulfilled.”

A few more things come to mind when I think of the affirmation I created. 

First of all ~ “Thoughts Become Things.”  Quoted by Mike Dooley, who is a contributor for the book, “The Secret” and is doing wonderful things for humanity in traveling the world and through his powerful free emails sent out daily to inspire.  And to me, just these simple words say that an alignment of thoughts (and our thoughts can be completely derived from our beliefs OR contribute to them) is pertinent, too.  And, of course, that’s why he encourages us to “choose the good ones!”  To visit Mike Dooley and receive his daily emails check out his website at Tut.com.

And the other thing that came to mind in all of this was once again Gregg Braden’s book, “The Spontaneous Healing of Belief: Shattering the Paradigm of False Limits ” as this book explores our core beliefs and not only what their misalignment can cause, but some really powerful methods on how to address these and overcome them!

I really hope this particular AFFIRMATION was inspiring, and hopefully, I could provide some additional resources for those who wish to explore the power of beliefs a bit further!

I hope you all are very mindful of 2009, moving in alignment with all of your core desires and intents.  Best wishes for the New Year and years to come. :)

BELIEVE: ALLOW: RECEIVE: BE THANKFUL!

Much Love,

Audrey

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December 13

Blogging to spread the word!
I've been making huge attempts to get the particular message from my last entry out to the world, as have others.  And while I feel like I want to share the rest of my blog and my upcoming entries, I thought another great way for me to coexist with humanity was to share this through some other blogging sites ~ And any bloggers out there who wish to do the same ~ the following link is a great site for you.  It is not one of those sites where you go and post your entry TO that site and hope that someone will stumble upon it and read and then the site might PAY you...LOL...this is more like a way just to SHARE your information of a blog you have ALREADY generated that you find valuable....or invaluable, per say. :) Happy blogging!



Much Love, Audrey


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December 07

In Gratitude

       Christmas is fast approaching and the gathering of friends, loved ones, and many families is near, making a time for us to all coexist at a truly deep and meaningful level with the ones we love and also share this love with all of humanity. In light of the fact that this largely coexisting holiday is around the corner, I have been compelled to write about this moment in time that surrounds many of us.

      

An event that has been at the forefront of my mind this holiday season has been the act of giving to one another. We do this subconsciously often throughout the year anyway, and we make attempts to offer gratitude, too, for all we receive. However, at this traditional time of year, we are faced with its meaning at a more conscious level. We look all around to see people giving and receiving and we seek to do the same, to be involved in these acts, if we are able – AND WE MOST CERTAINLY ARE! We might not have money; we have the ability to show gratitude, though; and we have the ability to coexist with our loved ones and share the gifts from within us.

       

At present day, the economy is in “not so good of shape.” But poverty, for many, is nothing new…and even in the days when the economy was OK, many would find ways to coexist, to give their love, to receive, and to feel and show gratitude, even if they were poverty-stricken. For some, this is new wisdom; for others, this is a way of life.

And I wanted to offer a story of a family who has not always been so fortunate monetarily, but who has been gifted the joy of coexistence with family and friends (and strangers, even), through these beautiful acts of giving, receiving, and gratitude.

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It started out that having twins meant that gifts from the family and all of their friends just poured in. By the truckload! Double everything! And it went on this way for years (even when neither parent could maintain steady employment). A few years later, another child was born, and Christmastime became even tighter for this family, whose income level was still below $12,000 a year. With another child, gifts from family and friends were less and less, as was understandable (there were THREE to buy for!). Ever so grateful for all that had been offered to their children, hope was never lost, and Santa always came. Smiles consumed the children’s faces, the parents, and all of their relatives and friends. Brief moments of worry would flicker like a candle about to extinguish before Christmastime, but they were always alleviated by the presence of their children’s smiles and their warm embrace like eternal flames.  

      

       School age arrived, and work, for the first time, provided an income where this family could be Santa. ($26,000 a year). Now the family could give to others as had been given to them before, and they felt even more blessed. They gave some, but gave to themselves just as much. And this did not last long, only a few short years,……..and the families who had given so much before, were either unable to give as much themselves now, or assumed things had changed. With the days of living in luxury being viewed as now in the past (for this family, $26K was pretty luxurious!), the AGAIN struggling family (a below $10,000/yr., 5 person household) really DID worry about Santa coming………

       HOPE….the parents would look at each other at night when the kids were in bed, and one would say, “How are we going to have presents for the kids this year?” The other would reassure them, “SOMETHING would happen…something ALWAYS happens. Just have faith.” And it would go back and forth….this reassuring of one another….until, one day, one of the children’s school administrator’s called the children’s mother and said there were some toys for ALL of their children waiting to be picked up at the school. Something had happened. A real life miracle.

      

       With tears of gratitude cascading down her face, the mother walked into the front office to find an entire BOX of toys for ALL of her children, appropriate for their ages and gender. When she asked where they had come from, she was simply told that the children’s names were entered into the “Toys for Tots” drive. No mention of who entered their name. No mention of who to thank. No one had even known of their worries or attempts to reassure one another or hopes…it had even been quieted from their children. All that was conveyed was that there was a drive for families in need, and that they were thought of, and WE all were part of this cascading love . . .

For three whole years now, SOMEONE out there has been helping our family. As my husband looked at me again this year, with our family in more of a crises than ever – neither one of us employed, the loss of my job (for the second time now), the loss of my husband’s jobs (several times now), the recent loss of his finger and temporary job loss, and our past due electric bill staring at us with a threat of disconnection on December 25^th, Christmas Day, I looked at him, once again, and said, “SOMETHING will happen…something ALWAYS happens.”

      

It was just a few days ago that I took my    daughter to her karate class (which my husband WAS working off paying for before he lost his finger in the table saw accident! – OUCH, another mentally disrupting and monetary setback), and while at the class, was informed that my children had been entered for another year into the “Toys for Tots” drive. All THREE . . . again. For the youngest, it is Santa. For the twins, it is more. It is the gift of love and gratitude. This year, I was even asked if I would like the gifts to be wrapped so I would not have to spend money on paper! She even knew we could not afford wrapping paper!

      

Now, I can look at my husband and say, “Something HAS happened…and Santa is coming. I’m happy you are here experiencing this with me and my children and those who are giving to all of us. (That table saw accident could have been more than an index finger…we are all aware of this fact. We are grateful of his LIFE.) I love that even though you lost your finger and it has meant a financial burden that you have such a wonderful spirit about it, that you have been around the family more, and that I have had the opportunity to spend more time with you. And I even got to see one of the angels who has been giving to so many children for so many years – she says she has been involved with ‘Toys for Tots’ in our community since it started here. So much HAS happened. It ALWAYS does. And I’m so positively ‘charged’ (you always say how ‘electrical’ I am!) that I have full belief that our monetary problems about the electricity thing will be completely solved. So…..instead of worry at all this year, babe, let’s just ‘allow’ and be at ‘peace’ and ‘coexist.’ The children are going to smile, and I KNOW that will make me and you smile.”

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       This has been my personal experience with “Toys for Tots.” And this is my message for those who have ever been involved with them at ANY level…whether on the receiving end or the giving end: Those who receive enjoy moments of non-worry, peace, and coexistence; children smile, and smiles are contagious! Those who give are giving, not only money, or toys, but peace, love and joy to families that spreads throughout humanity. Their gift is one that surely keeps on giving! My family is only one example. The people who have been involved in our particular “Toys for Tots” gifts to us were only a few people, but this one example has reached farther than one might think. This kind of stuff tends to spread like wildfire….and who knows? Maybe this one family’s example (my example) might be enough to help many, many more experience the same gratitude, the same love, the same peace and non-worry, the same faith and the same kind of smiles.

     

      I have hope that my example can persuade something deep inside others to reach out and coexist with humanity:

     

       I hope if someone has ever been in need and EVER received from “Toys for Tots” that they will say some kind of, “Thank You.” This is my own personal starting point (It may not be much, for the only gift of gratitude I have to give, for now, is my gift in writing.); I hope one day, there is even more ways I can show my thanks. But, I think, also, that we all do the best we can with gratitude, and just the smiles on these children’s faces are thanks enough!!! I also hope that if someone is able to monetarily or through toy drops give to “Toys for Tots” that they DO! Because…someone….somewhere……is saying, “Something happened.” Meanwhile, someone else is smiling.

      

A great way to be supportive of "Toys for Tots," if you do have the monetary ability, is to make a donation to the The 8th Annual Internet Toy Drive that Sponsors Toys for Tots.  The link I have provided will tell you more about this fabulous endeavor that has helped so many families over the years.  And even for those who cannot provide monetary aide, there are other ways to help...just as I am doing, by simply spreading the word.  I would encourage those that feel moved by this in any way to try to get involved at some level.

In gratitude,

Audrey

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December 01

We're All the Same Difference

The following is a little something from Yanni that I wanted to share..............

In his performance of, "Live at the Acropolis," Yanni had said a few words that I wanted to reiterate...I don't hear many people repeat them when speaking of his performance...after all, the music is the love of the entire performance, but I feel like these words were echoed through the Universe just the same:

Yanni said,

“A little while back, I was watching an interview with one of the astronauts from the space shuttle.  And in this interview, he was describing his experiences while he was orbiting the planet.  And he was saying how beautiful Earth looks from above.  And he said that, much to his surprise, when he was going over Europe, he found that he was having a hard time telling the countries apart from each other.  He said, ‘the reason for that was that the lines that are in the maps are not in the ground.’  It makes a great point.  These lines, really, don’t exist.  They are made up.....completely.  And they perpetuate this illusion that somehow we’re all different from each other.  And I think the World would be a much better place if someday we stopped pretending that these lines exist, and we concentrate on our similarities rather than our differences.  And I just want you to remember ONE MORE THING . . . that everything great that has ever happened to humanity (since the beginning) has begun as a single thought in someone’s mind. And if any one of us is capable of such a great thought, that all of us have the same capacity – capability – because WE’RE ALL THE SAME."

Those words I enjoy reading over and over again...for those who have heard this performance or have it to listen to, you can probably imagine actually hearing these words spoken in his rich accent.  I sure do!  And if you would like to have your own copy of this performance, they have it for sale at Amazon.com. 

Here is a video that I also wanted to share................ I love this song!...and I feel like this musical connection was expressed through the connectivity of the musicians to all of existence  (that's what music IS -- a connection of different notes that produce a similar harmonic frequency), and because of the openness of where they are playing in Greece beneath the stars, unbarred by buildings, is now being reverberated throughout the entire universe for all of eternity.  I find it amazing, magical -- beautiful!  Hope you Enjoy!

 WITHIN ATTRACTION - LIVE AT THE ACROPOLIS

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Beliefs

After writing my recent blog entry about fear, and expression suppression, and allowing, I was compelled to return to some thoughts I had a while back about beliefs -- about "core" beliefs.  I had mentioned in my earlier blog entry about utilizing our "wisdom from the past," and it reminded me of some writing that I did which I submitted to The Magic Happens a few months back.  I had entitled this piece, "Immerse your Entire Being In It -- Wisdom From the Past."  Now what is this IT exactly?  And what is this wisdom from the past when we are told to be mindful of the present?  I decided to copy and paste my original document so that we can get a better look at these things.....and as you read the following, you will find "It" to be "LIFE," and that we are "wise from our past" because we have the awesome power to remember and restructure, acknowledging that that was then, and this is now.

 

When I started writing this article, I was involved in reading a book by Gregg Braden called, The Spontaneous Healing of Belief: Shattering the Paradigm of False Limits My friend, Kat McCarthy, introduced me to this particular writing, and I must've read 2 other books of Braden's before getting to this one!  Now, what Gregg can do in his writing to bridge science and spirituality, I could only hope to achieve to some degree in my thoughts...he expresses nonjudgmental points of view, enlightening perspectives, and altogether, intriguing concepts.  I know I was being guided to understand my past beliefs to some extent, however, after reading this book, I was able to honestly observe at a much deeper level and sought to restructure some false beliefs I was harboring.

In my own introspection and in retrospect of Gregg's advice, "Immerse Your Entire Being In It: Wisdom from the Past" was born, and I have moved through this writing to become mindful of the present, while honoring this wisdom from the past, and joyfully visualizing the future.

Hope you enjoy.....and if you get the chance check out Gregg's book -- I've offered a link above in case you are interested -- my writing is OK, but Gregg has hundreds of pages of quality material to absorb and some cool credentials to back his knowledge! ;) I'm still working on my own credentials!

 

Immerse Your Entire Being In It:

Wisdom from the Past

 

The now, the past, the future ~ where are you living today?

 

While being mindful of the present and allowing yourself every opportunity to thoroughly experience ALL of life and embrace each moment with your ENTIRE BEING, do you sometimes feel like you're “stuck?” At one point or another in each of our lives, I think that this has happened. Some event from long ago (or even recent history) has created various beliefs within us that have the potential to hold us back from our ability to fully thrive; our ability to immerse our entire being in life has become “stuck” somewhere along the way.

It doesn't have to be this way for all of our existence, though. We don't have to STAY stuck. :-)

 

In fact, to recognize that we ARE getting stuck in our attempts to thrive in life is really the first step towards rectifying this. We can ask, “Where has this breakdown come from?” In seeing where it has come from, we can then inquire further, “how can this breakdown be CHANGED so that we CAN fully embrace the here and now, every moment, and move into manifesting our dreams?” In taking the first step to find out where the breakdown came from and then rectify that area in which we have become stuck, we are allowing ourselves the ability to COMPLETELY embrace all of what life has to offer in the here and now, manifesting our dreams in the process.

 

There is often much talk about not living in the past, and that is surely no place to live. It was THEN, and this is NOW! Frequently, we get wrapped up in thinking too intently about some past experience or some future event, and being mindful of the present becomes a distant second.

 

HOWEVER.......

 

There is occasionally an event from our past that has created a certain belief structure that we are still harboring in our present day thinking. Unconscious, at first, this belief structure can begin to become conscious as we make attempts to thoroughly thrive in life. We may begin to realize that there is something in our minds holding us back from being able to FULLY embrace the present.

 

What are we to do?!? The past was then, the future is untold, and the present is all we have.

Except there is a little secret here.......

 

While still in the present, we have the awesome power of creating goals for our future, dreams and wishes, desires and intents. We aren't living there, but we THINK about it. Of course we do. :-) It is what DRIVES our present day actions. And the same goes for our past. While still in the present, we have the awesome power of restructuring beliefs that just don't serve us anymore, the power to CHANGE a previous way of thinking that DRIVES our present day actions, as well!

 

I, personally, hold a belief that we are allowed (yes, we have permission – from ourselves) to honor these abilities within us to create goals and intents for our future, as well as honor these abilities within us to restructure our thought processes created from past experiences.

 

If we need to, it's OK to move away from the present for a few moments to examine other moments in time. In doing so, we get to return to our present awareness to truly THRIVE in our greatest capacity!

I would like to offer an example of what it means to live in the now, while also taking a moment to revisit a past experience as it became necessary for allowing me to immerse my entire being in the experience of life:

 

A childhood memory that held a strong internal belief system and thought process for me had to be completely renegotiated when I began to truly experience life. It was a latent memory that would seldom come into consciousness. In fact, I thought I had come to a resolution with it and had “let it go.” I had not really rectified that experience, though. And I found that to completely and utterly enjoy life I was going to have to revisit it.......

 

{Jumping through time}

 

It was an absolutely gorgeous day (the sky was crystal clear, and the weather was flawless); EVERYTHING was magnificent! I was 7 years old, and I was on top of the world!!!!! I was riding my bike down a steep hill, towing a friend on my handlebars. We were daring and adventurous; it was pure FUN!!! But adventure and fun changed as rapidly as the flick of a light switch! As our momentum down the hill increased, I began to lose control of the bicycle. The handlebars jiggled from side to side in my lack of control, and my friend leapt off. This caused me to flip over the handlebars and land face first onto the cement. All I saw initially after the incident was blood gushing from my nose and the view of it cascading like a waterfall everywhere. Not much pain was involved, and this was probably due to shock. I ran home to see the look of horror on my mother's face. There was a subsequent trip to the hospital, of course. And the stitches, fat lip, and deviated septum that followed were physical reminders of beauty lost. Not only that, my friendship was lost, as well.

 

But all of that is not really as important as the thoughts and beliefs that were formed from this incident.......

 

I had realized my friend had merely scraped her knee. My face was completely mangled! My thoughts screamed instantly that she was still beautiful, and I was not. I was not thinking about what SHE might have felt or thought at the time. I was completely consumed by the thought that had she not jumped off the bike, perhaps I would still be beautiful. And I placed BLAME. And I felt HATRED. And I wondered WHY it happened to ME and not HER! Unconsciously, I carried these thoughts with me for YEARS!!! The main thought being that I was not beautiful. In that single thought and belief, it caused me to carry out a multitude of actions surrounding it – from more negative self-talk to numbing techniques to self-hate actions, including eating issues all the way to suicide attempts. One single life incident had gotten in the way of allowing me to fully embrace the beauty of LIFE. In fact, in all of the thought processes I had continued to harbor, it had nearly caused me to take my own.

 

In realizing that one single life incident from my past could get in the way of allowing me to thrive in life, I knew I had to revisit this incident and do some restructuring.

 

Was this incident and my thoughts surrounding it REALLY all of what I had ORIGINALLY perceived it to be? My compassion for myself and others had certainly changed over the years and my beliefs had thus changed, as well. I definitely had some renegotiating to do. The past would have to be revisited. I didn't have to LIVE there, but I decided that I did have to reevaluate.

 

{Jumping through time}

 

In my reevaluation, I saw, first, a growing compassion for the girl, my friend, who jumped from my bike. In my new awareness, I know that she, in that very moment in time, was scared and acted on instinct. There is no BLAME for ANY of what happened. We were having fun, and it turned around on us both. How could I hold any kind of resentment anymore for a couple of kids who were just involved in an experience? Secondly, how was I to know that SHE didn't feel terribly for only scraping her knee while my face was in disarray? How was I to know that she didn't feel some kind of guilt that perhaps SHE might be living with to this day? And I have a huge compassion for that. IN that, I know that I can no longer harbor any kind of “hatred” for what was simply an experience...for her or for me. And lastly, I realized that I AM beautiful. After many years of looking for the beauty outside of myself, I found that that is not where it lies.

Beauty shines from within.

By revisiting this past experience and restructuring my thoughts surrounding it, I found that beauty within. (That light that shines within each of us.) It is in me. It is in her. It is in all of us! :-)

 

 

Sometimes we must revisit the past in order to restructure beliefs that just don't serve us anymore. If we continue to allow ourselves to keep on living in a broken belief structure, our life will continue to be in disarrangement to SOME degree. If we can allow ourselves to revisit a past experience that has created this belief system in us, then we can begin to notice where the breakdown actually lies. Upon further analysis, we can pinpoint each belief within that experience that has led us to our thought patterns of today that we no longer wish to honor. In doing so, in the simple recognition of where these breakdowns in beliefs lie, we have the tremendous power to CHANGE them all!

 

We CAN renegotiate our past thoughts of our experiences and encourage them to be reformed so that we may embrace all of who we are NOW. We can then live in our greatest capacity! Each experience of our present day becomes part of our NEW belief system and our NEW thought processes. Our “here and now” becomes as beautiful as we allow it to be.

So, this is my hope for YOU ~ that you may fully embrace life!

 

If there is something holding you back – a past experience that harbors a thought process that no longer serves you: analyze it.

That's OK!

My hope is that when you find that experience and that belief that is no longer serving you, that you will be kind to yourself, and allow yourself to re-frame it and rectify it.

 

And then, let your new belief FILL YOUR SOUL!

 

Let it guide you to EXPERIENCE LIFE - in the now!

 

Let it DRIVE you towards the manifestations of your dreams! :-)

 

Be kind to yourself, and if you're ever stuck, go ahead and get unstuck!

And then, with your wisdom from the past, EXPERIENCE LIFE, EMBRACE YOURSELF IN THE MAGIC OF IT:

IMMERSE YOUR ENTIRE BEING IN IT!

 

Much Love,

Audrey Louise

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November 25

On Allowing

 

 

As humanity strives to expand it's cognizance, we all must recognize the suppression that has and is taking place (not only on a global scale), but within our individual relationships and encounters.

 

Do we allow for another to freely express themselves?  Do we accept that we are expressing ourselves in our highest capacity at any given moment in this physical body that we have been gifted, while still recognizing that others may still be battling suppression in their own existence and may meet our expressions with barricades or resistance?

 

And there is patience in this, understanding, and further communication that we CAN maneuver around these barricades.  If we are going to manifest a peaceful, loving environment where we are continually able to expand our awareness and collectively share with one another and exist in this coexisting environment, we must strive to remove the fears that exist within each of ourselves, and as a collective whole communicate about solutions and allow for the highest expressions in each of us.  As we are all....uniquely connected.

 

 

  This all may seem like a bit much to ask of humanity, as we look at wars, people in prisons, people in countries where suppression is evident, and people in countries where suppression exists, but is hidden in plain sight behind a government that tells a people that they have the "right" to certain expressions.....and I ask...is that not my inherent birthright...to express?  So whether from a country where violence squanders all expression through daily evident fears or from a country where this suppression is offered through what, some feel, are false freedoms, we ALL must learn to maneuver around these barricades and fears to express and communicate and grow together, thus generating peace.

 

ON ALLOWING:

 

IN THE BALANCE OF EVERYTHING

 

FEAR MUST BE REMOVED...

 

FOR FEAR IS THE ANTICIPATION AND WORRY

 

OVER AN EVENT THAT HASN'T EXACTLY HAPPENED YET.

 

AND EVEN THOSE FEARS

 

THAT ARE BASED ON VALID PAST BELIEFS,

 

CAN STILL BE REMOVED

 

TO HELP PROMOTE PEACE IN THE PRESENT.

 

EACH ACT OF FEARLESSNESS; EACH ACT OF LOVE

 

THROUGH ABSOLUTE KNOWLEDGE AND ALSO ALLOWING...

 

INSTILLS GREATER MINDFULNESS

 

FOR INSPIRED ACTION IN THE NOW.

 

BY ALLOWING FOR EACH FUTURE EVENT

 

(WITH THE WISDOM FROM THE PAST),

 

ALL IS KARMICALLY BALANCED AND IS AFFORDED THE OPPORTUNITY

 

TO BE RECIPROCATED IN FUTURE INSPIRED ACTS ~

GENERATING AN

UNSUPPRESSED

PEACEFUL,

LOVING,

NURTURING,

EXPANSIVE,

ENVIRONMENT.

 

 

 

LOVE TRANSCENDS FEAR.

BE LOVE. 

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November 11

Double Rainbow

I will certainly expand on the personal meaning of these rainbows for me later.  I wrote a pretty in-depth article and made reference to them.  But in essence, it was like a double wish.  And to make a long story short...my Dad and I both got to experience it right before my mother was to be intubated due to sepsis -- of which never had to happen.....our wishes came true.  She made a full recovery. :)

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